my list of things-to-do is growing ever longer while the amount of procrastination that’s building up is growing ever larger. that’s not a very good combination at all.
over the past few days, the past few very blurry days, there isn’t much that i can distinguish. that is to say, every single event seems to blur itself into the next. i don’t know if this is a sign of a much-too-hurried life or just really bad short term memory. knowing myself, it’s most likely the latter. nonetheless, i can somehow pick out little feelings of love and giggles and occasionally strong urges to strangle a certain someone. thankfully, the love and giggles successfully drowned out the need for murder.
work has been the same as always. although with the bugging from everyone about “why haven’t you quit yet?!”, i’m starting to feel pressure in said direction. i guess it’s time for me to draw up that old infamous list of pros and cons. surprisingly, the urge to throw in the towel is steadily becoming lesser as the days draw on in that damned pit, but then there are always those other factors which make not working there largely more favourable than working there. i guess i never imagined that work politik would actually manifest itself as dramatically as it has. let me just say, it’s not pretty at all. i wish i could be more straightforward about all this because writing the way i am now is pissing the pants off my butt, but sadly, it’s not really possible unless i wish to get dooced.
does anyone else find that one republic song “stop and stare”, irritatingly irritating? i mean, geez, get your butt off the charts already. on that note, i am also equally sick of one-liner punch lines which don’t have much punch at all.
if there’s one thing i’ve learnt at all, is that life doesn’t have to be perfect for me to be happy. if you look hard enough, there’s happiness hiding in the seemingly insignificant cracks. and no matter how inappropriately optimistic it might seem at times, i believe it’s always good to find a silver lining in every situation. no, i’m not a blindly happy individual. it’s just that when you can choose to be happy, why not? fun fact! i’m a hard core romantic guy. yeah, i know. what a surprise. i also like truckloads of chocolate, arguing with people who are very obviously in the wrong. and i guess all that’s left of what i want to say is… *grump*. there you go. i like everything to be on this section. i don’t like having sub sections on my blog. if there is anything, you could just leave a comment. i will be more than happy to accept it. i don’t know why i am not recovering from whatever i am suffering now. just what is wrong with me. normally, when i am sick, i can’t even do my work/reports but it seems that with this stupid aching and blocked nose, i can do my work pretty fast. why are promises made meant to be broken? why can’t human be more appreciative? listen, i’m not there to entertain you only when you are bored and when no one to talk to you. i’m not a punching bag where i hear only your woes and nothing else. don’t give me lame excuses or whatever. seriously, i am pissed with you but by being pissed, how does it help to change the situation? sigh, not only its difficult to find someone but its sooo difficult to find someone whom i can talk to. anyhoos, i miss you so much. it would be good if right now, you are here with me instead of……….. 
