i’m free!
free from the gripping hell that has tortured me for the past two months! words can’t describe the joy that is errupting from the depths of my heart.
it just occurred to me how there might be a small possibility that all this blog ranting isn’t getting to the correct recipient. i’d like to think it is because well, a person like that could only indulge in a few activities. and on that note, let me just say that since taking action, i have decided that you are far from salvation and seriously aren’t worth any more of my effort. so much for repentance. your thick skull won’t even let sense through it.
she’s right, i will do well in the real world out there because i am simply a cold, ruthless, unfeeling killing machine.
but i am very proud of that.
from the time i knew i could profile people, i spent days on ends predicting behaviours, deciding outcomes of situations. i still do it today. this has become a part of who i am, a constitutional aspect of me that what most people term as a natural emotional defense. i choose to see it as an offense.
for most of my later life (up until this point in time), the people i interact with are largely those who can see past themselves and their shortcomings to reach the conclusion that while i am an asshole and potentially manipulative, my intuition and intellect enable me to guard those around me fiercely.
because i will fight for what is right and i will fight until my last breath. when all is said and done i will make sure nothing is left in my path. because that’s who i really am, a cold, ruthless, unfeeling killing machine.
a son of a bitch.
and dear ms sara saw that. she knew what was going on the entire 3 years. deep down she probably disliked me. because i destroy rainbows and taint lilies.
that’s okay, i still hold dear the people close to me, and even if that number dwindles every day i couldn’t be more concerned. i’ve gotten to know some pretty amazing people in my time and have experienced what i think is the best of both worlds.
i’ve seen people from different classes and all walks of life and have interacted with them on a daily basis.
my point is simple, i don’t give a shit what you or anyone thinks about me, because i know what i think about me and i know i possess the capability to make you feel like the biggest fuck in the whole world.
that’s why I’m ready to head into the real world. anytime.
