i really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen. i least expected it, i experienced the worst headache ever, all i could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. i cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something i’ve always fought for. we all made mistakes not trying to understand each other, some words did hurt in some way and i guess we got carried away after all those arguments . i know sorry is just a word, but for what it’s worth i am very sorry for hurting you. sometimes you caused me pains too but and i’m really confused about everything. i much want things to be stable and that you get all the time you need to make your decision.